so that little situation finished. if he wasn’t such a lying dickhead things would’ve worked out but you know, it’s MY life we’re talking about here and nothing ever goes right, so it’s not exactly unexpected… never going to get a decent boyfriend as i only attract pricks who lie and think they’re sick so ……………………… i will just die forever alone. Also doesn’t help that i’m like obese and my face is disgusting soooooooo not much can be done. in a bit
Confusion
I’m emotionally not ok to be honest, it’s so awkward and weird how looking back at post that I did about 2 weeks ago and already so much has changed. I don’t know I’m going through one of those times where everything becomes emotional and feelings start evolving and people get involved and oh dear. It’s never that simple with me though (I don’t know why and never will -unfortunately-) because then people start lying to me and it becomes a game and it’s so much more complicated because then people get jealous WHEN THEY HAVE NO RIGHT. I know this makes no sense but it does to me… I wish it didn’t.
Right now I have a choice to make and it’s a tricky one.
So done I’m laughing.
If I had walked down my road yesterday I would’ve of seen a boy that I have liked for years now & possibly talked to him after 2 years, but no, I wasn’t aware of this and obviously now I will never see him again, which isn’t ideal but I have to accept because that’s just what my life is. Also the fact that this guy lives in Streatham yet is in my town every day & I don’t ever see him is a sign in itself
I am so fat and disgusting why can’t I be half my size
Lyric of the day
‘Do me this favour, as i stand beside ya,
Quote my lyrics to me as a gentle reminder’
routine ……………………………………………………………..
usual emotions
I feel as though people are NEVER on my side, that has pretty much been my life though, like growing up and stuff I was just always left by myself to deal with shit alone (probably why I’m so independent), and even though sometimes someone once in a while enters my life that I feel I can share my situations and dilemmas with somehow that always goes to shit and either they just don’t understand or I can’t bring myself to full open up to them/anyone, that in itself being an issue because people just give up on me because I’m pretty closed off and don’t tell anyone my personal problems & to be honest I couldn’t give 2 fucks if you/anyone thinks. Also thinking of someone as a really good friend and listening to them, but knowing to them you’re just another person they talk to mind fucks me and makes me just give up on EVERYONE, I just feel like I’ve just wasted emotions and thoughts on someone who clearly DIDN’T CARE THAT MUCH……….. WHY.THE.FUCK.SHOULD.I.CARE.ABOUT.YOUR.BULLSHIT.
Ps. if you follow me, UNFOLLOW cheers x
Time doesn’t heal
It’s been around 6 months HOW AM I IN THIS STATE oh gawd I hate myself and f’ing emotions, what the actual fuck is this. I don’t understand, jeez I must be a really weak individual. Anywho I shall leave the reader with this beautiful song:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MVS3crqBzSA Check out Lianne La Havas
Cali, Colombia
My countryyyyyyyyyyyyyyy <3
Nestor
Can I just stress how irritating Nestor is? I secretly love him because he’s so humble but he isn’t really needed though is he? Lets be honest about it.
I DON’T CARE. PRIAM IS A DON!!!
